I’ve got a little notebook that I stick any blogging ideas in that come to me. It used to look like this:
But after ‘going public’ with my blog last month and then promptly (but fortunately only temporarily) losing the above model I upgraded to this:
Anyway the point of this of rambling introduction is to say that both still have lots of ideas in them. Luckily for the internet I’ve got lots of things to say. It’s just that this week I haven’t really felt like saying any of them. I’ve started a few posts and not really felt inspired or motivated to finish any of them. My brain has been full up with other things and the blogging words just haven’t been flowing.
As well as being a bit frustrating I definitely felt under pressure in a way that I didn’t in February, March, April and May when I was penning the odd post (ahem, essay) to me, my husband and the occasional accidental passerby who was probably googling for a job and wondering what ‘Mother’ would entail.
I still can’t profess to being a super-regular blogger but going public has, up until now, generated quite good pressure…a bit of a catalyst to commit pen to paper/fingers to keys and see what happens. Blogging publicly is friendly and sociable as well. It’s like being at a party where everyone is having a great time and there’s scintillating conversation. It’s lovely.
But this week the pressure all felt a bit much…it was veering into bad pressure, which wasn’t helping me write at all. I needed to nip out of the party for some fresh air. So I took a few days ‘off’ and on reflection it has actually been a really useful week. I read a post today called How to Overcome Writer’s Block on ‘Live Love Blog’ that made all sorts of great suggestions to encourage you to keep writing and one of which was to do a list of ten things…
So, in a slightly half-baked attempt (my list only has eight items) to take onboard such nice advice here’s what I’ve learnt this week by not blogging:
1. Real life comes first – groundbreaking I know. Nobel Prize me later.
2. Self pressure – This is probably not true for everyone but I’m pretty confident that there isn’t anyone sat expectantly at home chain-drinking tea and waiting for my next masterpiece; no one will notice if i’m not at the party for a few weeks, let alone a few minutes. What this means is that ultimately I am in control of whether to put myself under pressure or not. Oh I do like being in control, this makes me feel so much better.
3. Blog discoveries – Not wanting to blog myself has freed up time to read more writing by other people. There are some wonderful ones going on my reading list after this week, like this one: You’re Glowing and Other Mummy Myths. You’ll laugh, sob (a lot) and enjoy some lovely sentence structure.
4. I ♥ Lost in Books! – I did publish one post, I finally prioritised my book section and wrote another book review post. I haven’t found hundreds of readers for these, but I really, really enjoy writing them and am refocused to do more. I know, how rock n roll.
5. My beautiful blog – I got thinking about my blogging aims, I believe this falls in the category of ‘blog admin’. Well I now know what I want my blog’s banner and logo to look like, so hurrah for me. And I can tell you, it looks super nice. In my head.
6. Crossing a line? – Maybe my reluctance to finish any of the posts I’ve started this week was about more than just my personal circumstances this week. Maybe some of them were going to be too irrelevant, too controversial, too personal or just too confusing right now.
7. What’s me (and what’s not) – In my bad pressure state I looked around at what trends are around in blogs at the moment and I actually drafted a ‘what’s in my changing bag?’ post. I quite like reading some of these and always think I should be a bit more organised. But to be honest to write a post like this is just so emphatically not me (I can barely remember to put shoes on my child). Given this, and given that my changing bag is more like a changing clutch bag, it was a short post. It mostly listed the ingenious ways I’ve circumnavigated the protocols of parental expectation when it comes to being prepared (if required to defend myself I think I’d use the word imaginative.) An incredibly useful post to draft as it will serve as a good reminder to stay true to myself.
8. I like the air out here – Ultimately this week has shown me that I must nip out of the party for some fresh air from time to time…I hope I can avoid the bad pressure in future and just enjoy the view. But please, come and get me when they bring round the canapés. There is food at this party, isn’t there!?